ARTICLES
PRINCESS
DIANA SPEAKS!
(Date
Posted:03/10/2005 17:52:35) SAVED
AS 88
"
In 1995 I signed my own death warrant and that was in my
 speaking
publicly on a television interview. The interview conducted
by Martin Bashir was "Panorama" and something
I'd organised and arranged albeit in secret as I knew that
obstacles, very real ones would have been put in its way
had I spoken openly about even my intentions of it.
As
it turned out the repercussions of it were far greater than
even I had imagined, knowing naturally that it was going
to ruffle certain feathers but not knowing to what extent
until after the event when they became all too apparent.
Two employees resigning and William greatly upset by it
which of course had not been my intention in doing at all
as I am sure now that much older and wiser he is well aware
of but at the time it did!
Also
of course it forced Her Majesty to take the unprecedented
move of requesting that the Prince of Wales and I divorce
having lived separate lives unofficially since 1985 when
our marriage in all but name was dead. It was increasingly
noticed and reported how we spent months apart from each
other with further revelations that we'd arrive to attend
functions from different parts of the country, show a united
front at them and leave separately, though often initially
sharing a car to a designated area where we'd separate out
of the cameras glare.
At times
as by example my father's funeral, I resented his being
there, complete hypocrisy but at the time necessary for
our double act that we'd perfected so professionally! We'd
often found ourselves abroad sharing the same hotel but
in separate suites on our royal tours and I'd attend one
function or other and he another. I plainly drew attention
to this fact in visiting the "Taj Mahal" in India
alone which had the intended effect, the public exposure
our marriage was a sham and something I desperately wanted
out of but it was our tour of Korea that provided this final
curtain.
Our
masks falling, our outward display of unification failing,
the show was over! This I have to say was an arrangement
that by this time suited us both, we actually couldn't bear
to be in each other's company longer than necessary !Something
I am so glad to say changed after our divorce when we became
much more friendly, something not viewed positively in the
royal house but at the same time powerless to change it
as proven by the fact that he was so adamant in the organisation
of my funeral against their strong opposition to it. The
boys had suffered during the marriage emotionally and suffered
from our separation and eventual divorce naturally though
they're being at boarding school was of tremendous personal
benefit to them.
As parents,
we loved our children though I have to say that I made sure
I was more demonstrative of this and albeit at times unfairly
so which is why, I am so glad that today they have such
a close and emotional bond with their father.In the interview
I was too honest about certain things and of course questioned
my husband at the time's ability to rule. knowing the character
as I said then and I will reiterate now, it is a responsible
role as proven by Her Majesty's lifelong dedication to it
and it remains to be seen if the Monarchy, certainly as
she is accustomed to it anyway survives her ?
I personally
feel there will be great changes implemented to it , welcome
and necessary changes so that it has a chance of survival
in an ever changing world. I never the less at the time,
at the end of my tether and determined to have my say about
things, my husband having already done so before me, thought
it only fair to tell my side of the story in person as opposed
to in script as of course the Morton book had been published
though not known that I'd contributed personally to it.
I admit I was a woman scorned, a victim as I saw it anyway
of a system that I at the time saw no escape from and one
which was destroying me piece by piece.
Now
you may say that I am all about me, me, me !.... well this
site is mine so I naturally speak about how I personally
was affected and how I felt about the circumstances albeit
not publicised at the time, of my life and make no apologies
for doing so, after all it being your choice to read about
them or not! During my interview and during his, we both
admitted adultery and actually deliberately doing so knowing
that the result would mean that as opposed to hiding the
fact, we could be honest about our marriage and its having
failed. It was after the subsequent divorce and my loss
of the official title that I set in motion the circumstances
and events which lead me to say I did myself no favours
in certain powerful and influential areas in which I was
seen as a problem, as a menace and as a liability.
I lost
none of the popularity I'd courted with the people with
the title, without it, infact it got me the sympathy vote
which naturally assisted me in becoming all the more powerful.
My ex albeit with his mistress openly did not fair so well
and still by many has lost his appeal and certainly respect
but under the circumstances, only a fool would expect things
to be different but his new wife loves and supports him
with the same devotion as she's always felt and that must
in some way be of immense comfort to him, his finding and
securing lasting emotional stability with her.
Something
Harry has recently drawn to people's attention, Papa is
happy as naturally my death did affect him as I have said
we were friends at the time accepting our finding love relationships
elsewhere. Albeit not politically motivated, I became a
spokeswoman for people affected by political issues and
none so powerful as the "Landmines Campaign" which
I had a genuine and humanitarian interest in but which in
my drawing attention to it, I'd made enemies in the establishment
who openly voiced this in their opinions of me, my being
referred to as a " Loose Cannon " being a prime
example of this.
I held
power and as an unofficial royal could involve myself in
political issues and express my heartfelt opinions openly
which I did naturally, opinions that made people in certain
areas feel extremely uncomfortable and as someone who always
believed in and used the strategy of confusing the enemy,
there was no way of telling what I would do next. As I'd
proved in the arranging of the "Panorama" interview,
I was shrewd and quite capable of deception and this made
me dangerous.
I was
also alive and by this I mean a live wire, at the peak of
my health both physically and emotionally, I had abundant
energy and vitality and free of the past determined to leave
it behind me and enjoy a new life even before meeting Dodi
who was as it turned out for me, the icing on the cake,
it's heartbreaking for me and I resent people's judgment
of our being a relationship of the moment but respect that
people are entitled to their own opinions and prejudices
and nothing I can say will change that as he and I were
denied a future that would have determined the truth about
these insinuations made against us and that future!"
*Copyright
Andrew Russell-Davis
| 
